CFS and how i found my way out.

by Gavin Patterson

Hi spiritual journey team,

Here is a cfs blog about my CFS recovery - how i -fixed- my cfs.

Having Chronic Fatigue Syndrome has been very frustrating. It is easy to have one's defined by it.

CFS and other people’s reaction

People will still put regular responsibility on you. Why arent you working enough, why dont you move out of home. etc.

CFS and Doctors

The Doctors I saw got sick of sending me for blood tests, one had a chat with me about how she couldn't send me to get more due to her monthly budget and insisted that i be put on anti-depressants. Doctors love prescribing anti-depressants and antibiotics for problems because it seems to go away, in the short term anyway. And they get paid.

A CFS Definition

I'd define chronic fatigue syndrome as constantly feeling overwhelmed/tired by life, feeling -unwell- and as your nervous system is smashed, feel attacked from everywhere at once.

My Personal Experience of CFS

The most i missed was being able to do exercise. At one of my lesser moments of CFS, I remember kicking a soccerball for about 2 minutes, having to apologise to my friend because i became so tired and went home to crash for 16 hours in bed.

When i had chronic fatigue, everything was a huge chore. Simple things people take for granted, having a shower was a struggle for me. Sometimes it would be enough for me to go back to bed. Where i have probably spent the last four years spending 2/3rds of my time.

My CFS Symptoms and Problems:

  • Low blood pressure.

  • Constant sugar cravings.

  • A feeling of being unwell. That something was wrong in me or with me.

  • Tiredness that never disappeared. Sleeping would not restore what it should.

  • A fear that everything i did would contribute to the CFS. This developed after having CFS for a while and most things would seem to.

  • Sensitivities to every second food.

  • Exercise with any use of strength or adrenaline would drop me to the point of exhaustion.

There were 2 things that helped pull me out of CFS.

The first was listening to myself, part psychology/meditation.

If CFS is not depression, why deal with it on a psychological level?

I spent four years in every kind of therapy i could manage energy wise. Looking for answers, trolling the internet for symptoms, cfs cures, cfs treatments etc. What is easy to call hypochondria, but i felt an agonising need to find out what was wrong.

I spent some good times in therapy, which did not cure my problems but helped me get to a space i could manage my stress and symptoms.

I definately recommend people find a good therapist, at least to help manage the stress of CFS.

Meditation and why it’s important.

Meditation is the hardest activity anyone can do. Meditation is also the easiest way to feeling better in one's self.

Due to the amazing amount of options we have in our technological age, its easy to get overwhelmed and never spend any time with ourselves. I know when i was feeling my worst, thats when i wanted - something to take me away from feeling bad. To lose myself in drama/excitement to pick me up.

Immediately after meditating, i would fill my mind up quickly because i was afraid of pain. I think the most important question for people struggling with any long-term illness or issue is: What is my relationship to pain?

I personally ran away from it.
Some people drink, take drugs, overwork.
I hunted my problem down, while running away from it at the same time.

Then one day spent being angry at myself for wasting time doing useless activities, I felt i'd had enough. I sat down with a book about meditation for a few minutes to prime myself, then started meditating. After two minutes when i was ready to quit I said, "No i'm sick of that drama" and kept with the meditating, it felt as if something fell away.

Don’t get me wrong, every time one meditates, the need to do something else seems lurking underneath, waiting for a weak opportunity to come out and say, "you'd rather go do something else." (a good way to end up doing housework is to start meditating)

So I sat. And i felt god awful amounts of pain in my body. But i let myself stay with the pain and let my thoughts be heard with acknowledgement then let them go. And after all those horrible struggles, after meditating i felt freer in the body and the mind. And life stopped dragging so much.

I found a nutrient that cured my CFS, so why talk about meditation?

I don't believe that the nutrients i needed alone would have kept me out of having CFS. And that is very painful to acknowledge.

Pain represents a blocked emotion, belief or trauma in life. And the more time we spend with pain, the more free our bodies and mind become, the more time we spend in the moment instead of focusing on what the hell happened that time someone said something nasty to you.

My CFS cure – Nutrition, Minerals for CFS

My CFS cure was a cellular dose of potassium/magnesium. Though usually i don't buy this brand, this is their pharmaceutical range. Blackmores PPMP. Potassium Phosphate/Magnesium Phosphate.
They are celluloids, apparently absorbed straight away.

Within 10 seconds i felt well again. That something that i was lacking was finally in me. And my muscles started to relax. That week, when before i hadn't been able to use either strength or adrenaline without getting majorly fatigued, i had a training session with my friend, where i punched hard using strength and speed, i had him in a choke where i was able to squeeze my muscles, instead of technique for a good 10 seconds to turn the choke on.

So since being on potassium/magnesium my CFS symptoms list above has disappeared and i feel brilliant. This was not a complete fix, of course if i don't maintain a good balance i will no doubt end up back there. But at the moment its less chronic fatigue and just occasional fatigue.

Now why would it have that effect?
I had taken magnesium before and only felt marginally better.
Apparently potassium deficiency rarely occurs in healthy individuals (according to wikipedia). I sure as hell didn't feel healthy though.

Potassium is a very important nutrient. It is important for maintaining blood sugar levels.
Magnesium is required to relax muscles.
Calcium is needed to pump the heart, magnesium to release the pump.
Sodium and potassium are required as electrolytes for healthy blood flow.

Due to the problems with sugar cravings, intense body tightening, lack of energy and problems with basic foods. I believe Potassium and Magnesium together could have an impact on those with CFS lacking these nutrients. It probably won't be a cure all, as every case seems different and you have to find out what works for you.

The End

PS. My hope is that this entry in this CFS forum gives people suffering a bit of insight into my CFS recovery - how i dragged my way out of CFS. And are able to do the same themselves.

If people think you're mad, let them and do what you need to do for yourself.
Sometimes people can be a good barometer for us - but the best barometers are the ones that listen as well as talk.

Comments for CFS and how i found my way out.

Click here to add your own comments

Jan 27, 2013
Inspiring and in awe
by: Anonymous

Hello Gavin, just wanted to say your story is almost a mirror image of my thoughts and experiences. Thank you for sharing, I have the magnesium part sorted but still lacking something so will look into the potassium now.
Strange - been having craving for mushroom's and avocado's.
Thanks again, Lorraine

Click here to add your own comments

Join in and write your own page! It's easy to do. How? Simply click here to return to treatments cfs/me.

Receive daily inspiration...

Receive daily inspiration by putting
your favorite (favourite) quote on
an item you see daily around your home-
a mug, cushion, postcard, coaster, T shirt etc.
You will find my zazzle gift store at (USA)

Use one of my designs or start from a blank. (UK)

Thank you so much for supporting this website

Advert for personalised gifts with a spiritual or healing theme

My name is Katherine Owen.
Please respect my copyright as the author of this website.
I am delighted if you choose to share on social media, but please do NOT reproduce any of the contents of this page without permission.
© Katherine T Owen

Free forgiveness ebook

To receive
Releasing Judgment,
a FREE ebook

or to keep in touch...

Please be assured - I will NOT pass on your e-mail address to anyone else.

Be Loved

15 Spiritual Love Poems
God Love Self Love

(by the author of

For 14 years, Katherine T Owen was severely disabled with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, unable to walk, with little speech, and with inadequate care.

Katherine's small beautiful collection of poems take the reader with her as she journeys to know both self love and
God's love.

Be Loved Beloved. Cover for Kindle book of spiritual love poems.

If you don't have a kindle, you can download FREE software to read the kindle book on your computer.

Buy the paperback on Lulu

Click to preview or BUY
Be Loved Beloved

"One thing that struck me was the stripping of ego in the work. Most of us have a comfy ego façade, but weakness and disease tore Katherine’s away. The poems in Be Loved Beloved come from the heart."

Dana Taylor, Author of Ever-Flowing Streams: Tapping into Healing Energy

What's New?

  1. Spiritual Quotes About Rest - I rest in God

    Spiritual quotes about rest. A simple powerful quote can allow us to find a moment of inner peace. We rest in God - the love that lies behind this world. ACIM and Bible verses.

    Read More

  2. Why Do We Pray? - Reasons, Motivations, Benefits of Prayer

    why do we pray
    Why do we pray? The benefits of prayer include to lose myself in Oneness with God. Unity consciousness. I receive Gods love. Are you there God we ask? A list of reasons for prayer...

    Read More